abbiamo bisogno di seguire conigli bianchi, quelli giusti.

- is this goodbye?

S O R T B Y D A T E

online. thoughts running through my hands. rolling a mental cigarette. I can’t say anything but no.

- can I just get you back?

no. spreading out the tobacco.

- can I see you? per favore.

no. placing it on the rolling paper.

- can you meet me?

no. pressure. pressure. pressure.

- don’t you want to talk to me before I go? – no. big streak of saliva – I need to talk to you at some point. bisogno parlare con te. is it bad timing? too late?

no. smoke all around my head.

- I need you.

I need an ash tray.

- I need to know the truth. do you love her?

my love is under ashes. will autumn arrive to wind them away? or is it a brand new season what I’m waiting for?

the net is my game table. nights that I ask myself how truly I show the way I am to people I meet. how fast can I let them fill the edges of my brain. how fast can I take everything back from them. how extremely fast can I close them out.

from behind the screen I can look so perfect but it’s not.

- for god sake! I just can’t forgive your silence!

- I’m not asking you.

- talk. please talk. I wish you get the music that you deserve in your life. if only the notes were me – I set the outbound – please. be true to your heart.

- I was totally yours.

I run invisible.

- you were. until you were gone.

quasi lettere quasi parole quasi come un alfabeto. è così che sono ragazza e canto
a come alibi(dine), abbandonare alle debolezze, ancora a come ancheno.
bi come bastapuntoecroce e bi come bell’affaredicazzoancoratidicodino.
ci come ciupar l’è dolce in questo mare di ci di cappellaio di pensieri (che insieme mi consola e protegge).

oscillo sensibilmente al vento che sempre soffia sempre soffia, amore mio.

- vorresti dirmi che strada devo prendere, per favore?
- dipende, in buona parte, da dove devi andare – rispose il gatto.
- dove, non importa molto – disse Alice.
- allora qualsiasi strada va bene – disse il gatto.
( Lewis Carroll)

a mente vaga
possiedo.

e a che servirebbe avere un nome e non rispondere?

- name it. just name it.

S E L E C T I N G  C O N V E N I E N C E

nothing. here I am like a penitent in a confessional.

- do you love her?

nothing.

- is it security over risk? safe love over passion? what is it? – I won’t say anything – per favore, please, name it to overcome it.

nothing.

- should I change my name?

- I like your name – I set one of the seach engines to find you.

- why, then why, did you stop calling me with it?